A very public apology. Nicky.

I was wrong to go off like I did. I was wrong not to get in touch and tell you how hurtful that post was. I shouldn't have blurted it out like I did, it was wrong and I'm sorry.

I haven't read any of the emails or PMs . Maybe I should have. Instead I deleted them when I found them. I'm sorry, I should have read them, you have a right to your say.

I know you would have had a reason for saying what you did. Who wouldn't be excited about that. Holey shit that's like national! I'm a selfish bitch, and I know it.

I miss our friendship so much. You're one of the people that makes me laugh my guts wobbley. Seriously your a twit sometimes and it cacks me.

I miss having a bitch about the stupidity of others, and being able to get stuff off my chest knowing I won't be judged. You know so much and you never once have ever told me I'm stupid for making the decisions I have. You have respected my decisions, and supported me when things have ended up being fucked from them.

I miss having you in my life. You're one of my best mates and I'm so sorry with all my heart.

I hope I haven't ruined any chance of things being like they should be.

xo